I thought about you today and realized that you will be gone 25
years this coming New Year's Day. I have never gone to visit you
at the cemetery but I have had dreams about you through the years
that seemed so real that it was hard to imagine you were gone. I
guess that I keep remembering the day you came to my parent's house
looking to talk to me and I wasn't home. Then, it seemed like you
were gone without us connecting. Maybe I could have said something
or just listened to you that could have made you realize how much
you were loved by so many people and that what you were feeling
couldn't have been that bad that you had to take your life away
from us.
I never cried as much at a funeral as I did at yours. Maybe because
we all were so young and just starting our lives. You had so much
to give. You were so beautiful, smart and such fun to be with. I
guess of all the girls in high school, you were the one I wish I
could be like. My life is really wonderful Aileen. My kids are all
grown up and doing well. I wanted that life for you too. I hope
you found the peace you were looking for and know you were a very
special friend of mine.
I cherish all the fun times we had together. I want to come and
visit with you soon, I now know were you're are buried. Until then,
I can talk to you this way. Isn't modern technology great!! We will
see each other again and we can pick up where we left off - OK?
Miss you always,
Sandy
Dear Sandy,
Please accept my heartfelt sympathy on the death of your friend
Aileen by suicide. You state that it is hard to imagine that Aileen
is gone. Suicide often leaves friends and loved ones in a state
of shock and disbelief even 25 years later. Not only do we mourn
the death of a dear friend, but in the case of suicide, we also
mourn the manner in which our friend chose to end their life. Wisdom
and prayer teach us that the answer to our many "whys"
is often that we don't know and we won't know. It is through an
abiding faith in the Resurrection that you state "we will see
each other again." We welcome your journey to our cemetery
where you can meet Aileen again - until you meet again.
